Autumn Cravings

The well is dry,

nothing to yield,

No harvest to reap,

Just fallow ground,
Ready to sleep.

What can this heart

Give when it

Is so empty

So shriveled in contempt.

It was so full

Over brimming with love

And then it just

Died and found no one

To fill it again.

Oh harvest moon
You seem so full

I am a vessel yearning

To be filled and content.

The fullness must come

From within.

Feeling broken

Looking ceaselessly

for whatever it is

In the chasms inside

That can refill the soul
While "I" hide.

I am

I want to taste

The Knowledge on your lips,

I want to feel

The truth you have to share.

Healing begins

Knowing where I end

Being feels

Like I am reborn.

Thirsting for it all

Pouring it down

The channels of

My endless spirit.

Reaching out across

Time into perpetuity,

I touch the truth in you,

And swallow the sweetness of life.

No Photos

Siitting in the cool

wet sand,
Feeling the grainy,

earthy texture

Against my hands.

The water lapping

lazily at my toes,

The sun picking up

the gold in his hair,

my son.

Laughing as the surf
erodes the fruits

Of our afternoon's work.
Wading in the calm bay,

Looking back at the shore
Trying to freeze the frame.

Burn this image into my brain,
Carve it into my center

My heart wants to know it
forever.

No cameras, No Phones,
No photos.

Just me, just him,

The summer son

and I continue our

lovely swim.

When Love is a Drug

When love is a drug
It intoxicates

It teases

It promises,

It pleases.

When love is a drug

It surrounds you

It feeds you
It says
It will never leave you.

When love is a drug,

Nothing is real

An illusion

Meant to confound

And confuse you.

When love is a drug

You ache

You feel greed

You suffocate

You bleed.

When love is a drug,
It leaves

You feel like you want to die

You cry and pray

You can say Good-Bye.

The Journey

Following my heart

Lead me deep

Into the wood

Of dark self doubt.

This body is

My only vessel

Yet it is so hard

To keep it afloat in this life.

Was it easier

In the past

When I could see
More clearly what I am.

Or isit better

Now in this wavering

Misty world

Opening its yawning mouth.

Shall I continue

Venture forth

Find my final path

Back to my true God

Back to myself.

From Miles- A New Life

I'm losing my mind,
I don't know what to say,
pictures in my head,
are fading away

 

time takes its toll,
my lonely leaf blows,
lost from its tree,
and all that I know 

memories fade,
do I know who I am?
am I good or bad,
or am I just a man

I know who I love,
love is for me to know,
loves all that matters,
the rest can all go 

The world is a blur,
moving too fast to hold,
Fleeting parts of my life,
played out in bold

I want to see it all,
A room with a view,
picture an ocean,
A beach walk with you

I've got a new canvas,
and you are my brush,
lets paint the world,
we're not in a rush

I'm forgetting the old,
and starting anew,
waiting at the edge,
of a new life with you

American Woman X

Why is my life

Not sweet enough
To fulfill my desire

For a sweet life.

Left turns
Leading to nowhere

Find me
In the center of the maze again.

Looking inward
Gives me vertigo

I don't know

Where to go.

Funhouse mirrors

Speak greater truths

Than what I see

In my own reflection.

I've fallen
And I can't get down

I'm dreaming

And I can't wake up.

American Woman IX

Found the courage

Located the faith
To take the step
Away to a new place.

Alone and free

Strong where we

Think we want to be
And then we remember.

Why we stayed so long

Finding reasons

To just hang in there 
To stay strong.

Lonely nights

Listening to the dog

Lick his rear end

Looking at the clock.

Wondering did I 
Choose the right course
Did I find myself
Or lose myself in this Divorce.